Think, Believe, Know & Achieve
There are levels – there is thinking, believing & knowing. Each step is important, but knowing is when things get intensely magical. Once you reach knowing, it is not that fears or worries never pop up. Instead you see them for what they are, distractions from reality, from love. These worries are there to side track you from the life you really want. They are not reality, they do not hold any real power over you except for the power that you give them. Which again, is meaningless in the grand scheme of the true reality of your soul. The only meaning they have is in the journey that is this dream we call life.
If you are still in the thinking stage, where you are mulling over – is this idea that I can quit my job tomorrow and not go on welfare true? Can I believe this, what if I do go on welfare, what then? Then it is my belief that you are not ready! You want to at least be in the believing stage before you ‘quit your day job’.
When in the believing stage, you find yourself questioning the different worries that arise and presenting yourself with the newer higher thoughts. They may still feel a little uncomfortable, but you may still believe they are true. Once you reach belief you will start noticing how life has supported you into getting to the point you are at now. Listening to your intuition will become a part of your daily practice, not simply a good idea. For example: a lot of people believe (or even know) that it doesn’t help to worry – but they don’t walk their belief. Instead they worry anyway often because ‘it is hard not too’. I postulate that life is FAR more Difficult when we choose to worry. When we choose not to live in accordance with our belief, we send a mixed energetic message so we get a mixed energetic answer.
However, when you believe that there is no point in worrying and you catch yourself in the act of worrying or what ifing something and you choose to let it go. Simply say a little prayer and let it go, then you are living in alignment with your beliefs and sending a cohesive energetic message. Once you start sending the cohesive message you start getting clearer and clearer feedback and you start to move on to knowing. The evidence that life will support you in all your thoughts, even your subconscious ones will start piling up and tuning in and listening becomes the new habit.
I choose to be open to receiving the highest vibrational answer that is accurate and true. I am between belief and knowing. There are moments when I am fully in the knowing and others where fear and guilt creep up when I am not diligent about my thoughts and direction and worry begins. Most of the time, once I notice that I am not feeling good, I am able to reframe and make a higher choice. There are a couple of areas that still plague me, where the old fear of punishment pings in my mind and I have to be very diligent in my reframing.
I know now that life loves me. I believe that, most of the time, I know it. I now know that I LOVE life. I know that working less does not make me lazy, in fact, working less means doing more of the things I enjoy, travel, hiking, spending large quantities of time with my family, home improvement projects, taking self-development classes, more time at the gym and preparing healthy meals – well pretty much anything but being lazy.
I know now that so long as I stay open to receiving all that life has to offer me, so long as I reserve judgement about my own worthiness, so long as I realize that there is no punishment for not doing things the way others claim this life should be lived, that life will fully support me.
I owe a lot of this to my sister. My sister was an incredibly generous person. When she was a teenager and I was in elementary school she even offered to pay for me to become a cheerleader, which wasn’t cheap, out of her part time work if that was something that I wanted to do. At no time did she ever give me trouble when I didn’t pay her back. She was always doing something nice for me, was always generous with me, even when we went for a couple of years without talking she still had gifts for me that were very personal and reflected the love and respect that she had for me. In the end of her life, I still wasn’t there. I didn’t know how to deal with her illness. My sister in laws and my sister’s church family were the ones who were answering her late-night calls, taking her to most of her appointments and spent the most time with her when she was in the hospital. Yet, she still payed off my car note and gave my husband her car once she could no longer drive.
I bring this up to say this, it is because of her that I know what it is like to suffer no repercussions from negative actions. It is because of her generosity with me, that I have a picture to model for myself of how much life loves me. There were many times when I didn’t feel worthy of the gifts and generosity of love that my sis bestowed upon me, but in the end – I know that she never regretted any of it. Because of her showing me what it looks like to be loved so unconditionally, I understand how much life loves me.
I know now that by getting up in the morning and talking to myself in the mirror about how much life loves me and putting on my best face for the day that I will have a great day. I know that when I don’t get exercise that I am not in alignment with my own desires and am not being loving towards myself. I know that I still remind myself to open my heart, to let love in. I know that choosing to drink enough water is still the most self-honoring choice. I know that I can work on whatever I feel inspired to work on and that having several concurrent unfinished projects is not a mark of failure. I know that when I am avoiding something – that I need to tackle it. I understand that when I am avoiding that somewhere there is a fear of either punishment, unworthiness or that life’s love for me is conditional. I also know that I can face these fears and free myself from them. I know that when I face my fears – even when the worst seems probable or even like it is already happening – that life is magical and all I really need to do is open the door to that love and be willing to receive.
I know now what my dream life looks like. In my dream life, I rarely work. If I am focused on something, it is something I love and am passionate about. I know that it is okay to simply spend the day exploring the nature preserve with my family instead of being holed up in my office working on some project. I know that I do not have to do any marketing that I don’t want to do to be successful. I know that all I must do is put the best energetic vibration out there that I am capable of and that new business will always be coming my way via word of mouth, the marketing I have already done or some unseen way, but that no matter what – if I follow my inspirations I will find the treasures that I seek. In my dream life I help people. I am a speaker, edutainer and performer. I am creative and get to do fun creative projects, I get to garden, sew, meditate, teach yoga, explore metaphysics and all other subjects that interest me. I have an amazing husband and child, we live together in nearly perfect harmony. I am grateful everyday for the life that I have, how magical it is and how blessed we are. I know that life fully supports me in living my highest and best dream for myself and that even if that meant never working another day, that so long as that was my calling that life would fully support me in that endeavor.
Wait wait wait - so long as that was your calling? ? ? ? Splain lucy. . .
Okay- so if you aren’t in alignment with your calling – (YES we ALL have a calling) then you are not cohesively loving yourself. If you are not loving yourself than that is how you are asking the universe to treat you too. To be fully open to receiving the highest and best that life offers, we must be willing to do that which we most want to do! If we are unwilling to do that which we most want to do, we are not willing to let others (including life) love us either. Does that help?
I don’t know what the result of my calling is – but what I do know is enough. I know that at the end of the day, my life is all about spiritual concepts. I know that my calling involves exposing others to their ability to live life in alignment with their calling and helping to evolve consciousness to where the age of abundance can truly begin. I know that when I write even though it is currently merely a self-published (and mostly unread) blog, that this is a part of my calling and that I am opening the gateways for great and magical things to happen in my life. So I know that never working another day wouldn’t be my calling. I LOVE what I do, I LOVE writing, I love speaking, I adore edutaining. . . .
You don’t have to have a clear picture of the end result. For me in the beginning that needing to have a clear picture really sent me into a tailspin. All you need to know is how does it feel, can you tell what any small part of it looks like? What do you know that will be different when you are living your ideal life?
Here’s what I knew, I knew I wanted my own business, from about age 18, I knew I wanted to build my own legacy, not someone else’s familial estate. I knew I wanted to travel for work and pleasure. I knew I wanted to be able to take beautiful weather days off. I knew that I wanted life to be magical, mystical and that I wanted there to be more to reality than what I had been taught was real as a child. I knew that I wanted to be a lifelong learner, I knew that I wanted a true partner whom I could share my curiosities and idiosyncrasies with. Someone with whom there was passion and good communication. I knew I wanted to spend my life with someone who shared in my desires and added a few of their own to the mix. I knew I wanted a tidy, unique household. I knew I wanted to help large groups of people and be a dynamic public speaker. I knew that when I reached my goal that I would not worry about health, wealth or even death. I knew that living my dream would mean that life felt like a relaxing vacation. I also knew that I wanted to be able to have sex in the middle of the afternoon and that is true of my life too. All of these small details give you an idea of what a life will look like, but they certainly leave a lot to the imagination. I had no idea what I would be speaking about, I only knew I wanted to motivate and inspire people. Funny isn’t it that the first person I had to motivate and inspire was myself?
Many people would call these things work. While I don’t regularly consider any of them work, there are still times when it feels a little like that.